Thursday, March 29, 2012

Halfway There!

20 Week Pregnancy Update For Our Rainbow Jack

Gender: BOY!

Jack Alan Johnson

His size:
Cantaloupe, Carrot or Banana depending on what app you look at. He is about ten inches long from head to feet and weighs about ten ounces this week.

How far along:
20 WEEKS!!!! Officially half way! Trying to be positive and look at the glass half full....I have already come five months instead of I still have five months left!

Total weight gain:
I’m at about 202 lbs as of two minutes ago. I was 150 when I got pregnant with Marc and gained about 65 pounds with him I was 215 when I weighed myself the day before he was born. I lost 30, any weight I lost after Marc can be attributed to fluid and baby and also not eating from grief. I gained some back when I started eating again to try and get pregnant. of that before I got pregnant with Jack and I think I was about 189. So coming around again my weight gain has been about 13 lbs in the last five months. The doctor says I am doing well with weight gain so that is good. Trying not to gain another 65 this time.

Sleep is good. The first hour after laying down for bed consists of about 5 trips to the bathroom before I fall asleep but that is my partly fault because I am so thirsty that I always drink water before bed.

Maternity Clothes:
Dresses, yoga pants and fitted maternity shirts is what I’m most comfy in. Now that is has been 80+ degrees I am getting to the point of only wanting to wear maxi dresses and around the house my bra and panties. Marc saw me sprawled on the couch wearing nothing but underwear and bra and asked if this is how he should expect me to be for the rest of the pregnancy and I told him YES!

Food cravings:
Not so many food cravings as drink cravings. I have to have a Sonic drink at least a few times a week if not more. I love their ice and like to chew on it so I get a route 44 ice water and a route 44 strawberry lemonade or cherry limeade. I need to find a snow cone place because wedding cake snow cone is still my number one pregnancy craving!
I also crave chocolate cake all the time. Marc told me someone asked him if he was pregnant at work....he said "what are you calling me fat? Wait until your wife makes a cake every three days."
Oops! Nothing wrong with a little sympathy weight gain Marc. You can work it off with me at the end of the year carrying Jack around.
With Marc I craved sweets a lot more though. Jack usually wants healthy food like veggies and homemade dinners.

Food aversions:
Not too many. My nausea has been gone for several weeks now.

Symptoms I HAVE:

Heartburn-but only when I drink too much OJ or eat bad junk food.
Dizzy Spells-at least one a day no matter how much I eat or drink.
Swollen feet-because I have been trying to do to much now that I finally feel better and less tired. The occasional unreasonable irritability :)

No new ones.

Doctor’s Appointment:
Everything looked great at our 20 week anatomy scan which they actually did at 18 weeks. Love that we got to see him in 4D and very happy my doctor is so understanding about our circumstance. We will be getting extra sonograms to check on Jack and put my mind at ease about his cord.

I just felt him move this week and each day it is kind of random. I cannot tell his wake a sleep patterns too much now because I cannot always feel him but when I am sitting or laying down I feel him moving and giving small little jabs. I think he is most active at night but that could be just because I am less active and paying more attention to his movements.

Belly Button:
I have always had an in between belly button but this week it definitely popped out more!

Best moment of the week:
Feeling Jack move for the first time brought a lot of emotions. I was having a bad night but when I felt him move I started crying. I was overwhelmed with love and fear. Finally feeling him was just another reinforcement of the fact that he is real and not some imaginary hope I have. He is alive right now and I am going to try and be happy for whatever time I have with him. I just really hope it is much longer than I had with Marc.

What I’m looking forward to:
Feeling Jack move more and more and Marc getting to feel his kicks too.
The moment of relief I think I will feel when he is safe in my arms and away from him umbilical cord. Unlike when I was pregnant with Marc, I am not looking forward to his birth. I want more than anything to have him in my arms but I am afraid of the emotions and extreme fear and flashbacks that I think are going to happen when I go into labor. Right now I try not to think about that too much. I don't read anything about birthing and I don't want to create a birth plan. Other than knowing that we have a birth photographer and that Marc and I will most likely be the only ones in the room that's all I know.

What I miss:
I miss wine. I know it sounds bad but a few glasses of wine really helped me to relax after Marc died and now I don't have that.



  1. Love you.. and love that you are keeping this journal!

  2. I love that you're doing this. I enjoy the insight because I'm hoping to be preggers with my rainbow soon! I plan on having a journal also. I feel like i didn't cherish my pregnancy with Owen enough. i was just so focused in him getting here, i thought he was a sure thing. Thank you for being so open, you've helped me more than you know.