On July 5,2011 my husband and I said hello and goodbye to our beautiful son Marcus Alan Johnson Jr. In medieval times, alchemists sought the legendary substance known as the "philosopher's stone" said to be capable of turning lead into gold or silver. The alchemists also saw their work as a metaphor for the inner process of changing consciousness. Our grief has changed us. We are learning how to live again with a piece of our hearts missing.
I held my son in my arms as he took his last breath. Tonight on my run I realized that whenever I start to get down on myself and feel negative or discouraged all I have to remember is that. I am a survivor. I can do anything.